"I Just Need Possible."

I am a sucker for movies made for tweens. Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants, 10 Things I Hate About You, Aquamarine.  Today, I got suckered in to watching Soul Surfer for probably the 5th time.  I find the movie so inspiring, with the perfect amount of cheesiness.  I can't wait until I have kids old enough to enjoy cheesy teen movies with me.   One line that resonates with me from the Soul Surfer Movie is:

"I don't need easy.  I just need possible."

Even though I had been warned, I have learned the hard way that adoption from foster care is not easy.  Even once the children are home with us, it will still not be easy.  I just need to know it is possible.  It is reassuring to me that a couple from our adoption class just brought home two wonderful, healthy boys yesterday! They are now a family.  I would be lying if I said I didn't feel a twinge of jealousy.  But I know that those were the children for them, and ours are out there somewhere.  Their recent adoption reminded me that it is possible.

What a difference a day makes!

In the immortal words of Ice Cube...today was a good day!  It seems that attending the adoption party was the best decision we ever made. We got FOUR adoption related calls today.  That's right, FOUR! Our adoption social worker said that people are "fighting" to get to us first.  We hope to have some meetings set up soon with social workers to get more information.  Our social worker said we are "first choice" among the children:

1 girl, almost 4 yo.  No known special needs, no legal risk
2 boys --- 1 two yo, 1 three month old.  HIGH legal risk.  No known special needs.
2 boys - 19 month old and 4 yo.  19 mo old has PT and some motor delays.  4 yo has speech delays but is making gains.  Born methadone addicted.  Low Legal risk. Social worker MAY want a SAHP.
20 month old girl and 3 yo boy: Both on the autism spectrum, girl is having seizures.  We said no to them. :(

There was a sibling group at the adoption party of 4 girls ages 3 - 9.  Part of me wishes we could adopt them.  My husband said, "Yeah right.  Maybe with your next husband." The thing with 4 girls - they will all be teenagers at the same time!

A social worker also e-mailed our SW to request we attend another adoption party in 2 weeks at a local office.  After feeling discouraged for a little while, I am now feeling really optimistic.  Maybe one of these cases is our children/child. Maybe not.  But I guess it is nice to feel "wanted." And a reminder that our children are out there.

I have an all day training tomorrow where they have a "no phone" policy.  I will be checking my phone on the sly like a madwoman!!

More Waiting

     So far, the month of May has been mostly waiting.  Our social worker came by for one more home visit.  She had some follow-up questions before the home-study.  Luckily, I have lost the nervous feeling when she comes over.  I appreciate that she responds quickly to calls and e-mails as well. 
Yesterday, we met up for lunch with another couple we met in the adoption class.  They are very cool, and are similar in age to us.  It was nice to hang out with someone in the same boat as us.
For now, I have to restrain myself from shopping for the child.  This is especially hard considering I have three baby showers next month I have to shop for.  Our social worker said we can wait until we are matched, even if this means a last minute scramble for baby and kid items! We have decided that books are safe, and have started slowly buying children's books to build up our library.  D even bought a "1st Superman Book", which I think is adorable.